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the moon's nightmare-2nd original

  • Aug. 30th, 2008 at 11:33 PM

The Moon's Nightmare

I hear,
Far beyond the skies
Tears of deception
In the night

Lonesome,
The moon that's in your eyes
Said i dont love you
Fears aside

Frozen,
The wind full of lies
Whisper in my ears
Fuel the fire

Feel the coming storm
I ran along this weighted field
Just hold her tight
Till you bleed

(bridge)
If,
Death shall pass me by
kneel in sorrow
Curse the wait

Wave to me goodbye,
I tear my heart so we both know
The call beyond the path is haunting
  • Location:IMH
  • Mood: calm

mybreatheofheavenamongsttheturmoil

  • Aug. 30th, 2008 at 11:22 PM






Death's Shot To The Head

  • Aug. 29th, 2008 at 8:58 PM

I feel like a loser.All the things I enjoyed have gone.I no longer have the urge to eat.I havent talked to my brother since last Saturday and i dont wish to talk to him either.Fucking faggot prioritising the girlfriend before friends without knowing how to balance.And no look what happened,fucking asshole listened to the gf's persuasion to get the D60 and now he's fucking borrowing money from people.Listen to that bitch more man.she's the best for you.I dont give a fuck about him anymore.Yesterday was kindda saddening,i was wishing so much to spend time with putri after so long.i couldnt even slp the night before thinking so much what to say and how to act sounding like a fucking 14yr old on his 1st date.Zara being there wasnt a problem,i was kindda wishing she would be there too in case things got awkward u know but when the whole troop came,my heart dropped to the floor like something that crashes on the floor really hard(i have no idea what).I was really looking forward to it.but like always,things dont always go the way i want.:'(
I woke up this morning feeling fucking crappy.Feeling like fuck and knowing about my brother's borrowing of his friend's money was really the thing i needed to make the day more shitty.The speeding train on the track never looked so attractive before.I felt like burying my shirt just to smell like a graveyard and to smell a dead rat or bird just so i could smell the stench of death in my nostrils.

Wrecking Stratocumulus

  • Aug. 10th, 2008 at 11:56 PM

Wrecking Stratocumulus

Verse:
Your faith,is torn apart
Sodomy,is your new god
Behold,the cloud's wrath
Only flesh,and skulld to grasp

Pre-chorus:
(music only)

Chorus:
Ruin..as you cry
Betray..these mutant kinds

Verse:
Lie down,as you stare
Your wives,burnt to death
Admah,you'll burn too
Surrender,to the devil you
Entice...
Sedude...
Impenitent Sin...
Now it'll all begin

Pre-chorus:
(music only)

Chorus:
Sons of satan hold your hand
Hyksos slaughter you with grand

Slaughteror Superiority

  • Aug. 10th, 2008 at 1:59 AM

When can I go out with company and just walk around shopping or something..Its been such a long time..No company,No friends,No time...and when i finally have time,there's no one available...sigh...

  • Location:Hell
  • Mood: sad
  • Music:Slaughteror Superiority-Impiety

heeheehee

  • Aug. 5th, 2008 at 3:34 AM

[c=46][b]shaveshave[/b][/c] says:

okay okay whad i meant was,whenever you say those stuff right,if i say "omg lah hazwan,you are so damn romantic",like....i donno how 2 say lah,like im shy lah!of cos whadd.thats why i say stuff like "ah ye lah ye lah".cos i donno whad else 2 say.im speechless okay.

PHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • Location:Home
  • Mood: calm
  • Music:you were there-southern sons

bye bye

  • Aug. 4th, 2008 at 6:45 PM

I give up...Im not gonna search for gf anymore...let the right one come to me...I've had enough and I have no energy to chase or pour out anything...

Air=Human Ego

  • Jul. 31st, 2008 at 5:30 PM

Tomorrow is Friday!!!!!!.YAY!!!!!..but im working full shift.shit...So..to everyone reading this who's DYING to know what happened this week of my boring-with-little-tinges-of excitement life,nothing big happened.Plan of celebrating ubai's birthday at Tiet got cancelled cos the birthday boy couldn't be present.well,fuck it.Though i already bought drinks and wrapped his present,nothing could be done.

Today had an awful start,my parents refused to send me to work in the car cos they were just plain lazy.Fuck,if they could send and fetch my sister who works at the east of the island(way way east),why cant they send me to work??Cos i dont give them much money from my pay??Cos somehow it isnt THAT rewarding to send me to work??Fucking bullshit.I work my ass off just to support myself without troubling them,without taking a single cent from them,without showing ego and attitude at home and this is what i got.And to make the situation more fucked up,my brother scolded me for using 3 droplets of his perfume.Doesnt it count that i gave him cigarrettes as much as he wanted.Doesnt it count that i borrowed him money when he was in fucking need.Doesnt it matter that I had to cut back on my spending just so i could have spare cash to give him when his wallet is filled with cards ONLY.And he wants to be rackety just cos of 3 droplets??
  • Location:Tiet
  • Music:Insect-Spiral Architect

BuRn

  • Jul. 29th, 2008 at 12:22 AM

Its been one hell of a week.Nothing much.But tiring as hell.Been working my freaking socks off and plus the Tiet gathering.I sang paranoid by black sabbath and quit playing games with my heart by backstreet boys.yes yes,i know,the latter is a very gay song but screw all of u who have never liked backstreet boys EVER.Next month I'll be working at Tiet everyday freaking day except wednesdays and weekends so im gonna be fucking tired everyday.But im no longer working by end of August so no complaints.

Tiet have been a place i could call home.I've grown up so much there musically too.When i came in,i didnt know shit about drums,i was depressed after my 1st serious relationship failed,and most times,i didnt know where to go to.So i spent my days at Tiet even when i wasnt working.It was great,hanging out with lawrence,jamming,chilling and just living the rocker life.Tiet moved to a new location and i helped out painting and all.Tiet have been a good friend to me when i needed one most.I got to know cool people like Lezlie,Aaron,Joe,Halim and cardiac necropsy,Impiety and so much more.I grew close to the bosses and i respected them so much for following their passion and as responsible humans.Ah Long have been a role model to me,always the one dropping by to check on the studio no matter how busy with work.Yap have always been a great leader,never failing to point out our mistakes,though we got irritated at times,i've always known he meant well.Like wilson said,its not easy being the "bad" one and sometime a "bad" one can be useful.So many wonderful things happened at Tiet and describing each and everyone of those moments wld take forever.Cheers to Tiet and the people there for being monumental in my life.Continue the passion and keep on rocking to our graveyards!!
  • Mood: sad
  • Music:Painkiller-Death

Prelude To Ruin

  • Jul. 19th, 2008 at 10:10 PM

I just saw a roach crawl past me.Somehow roaches dont scare me though i love stepping on them to hear the crunchy noise.Alot of people are scared of roaches so i began wondering,what am i afraid of now??I realised the biggest fear i have is moving on.Not in a relationship kind of way but in a life kindda way.I realise that im gonna fucking miss my life now once i go into the evil island of Pulau Tekong to serve the nation.To hold guns when i dont have to,to fight when it can be prevented and to crawl on mud like a pig.I realised how much im going to miss schooling in SP,how much im going to miss people around me,how much im gonna miss jamming and just live carefree.Yes,live carefree without discipline,without leashes,without instructions and directions.I miss schooling and how much joy i had just slacking,smoking,talking about the nastiest things under the sun.Honestly,im scared shitless by the fact the im soon going to be living on an island,away form civilization,away from all the things i love,where the only thing i can drum is my bunkmate's bald head.

What happened to the times where generals lead their army in war.What happened to the times where if anyone were to die,it would be the top-ranking soldiers.I guess,every citizen should play their part in developing this nation.But why me??.Im just a nobody...Maybe that is why..

  • Mood: scared

Fountainhead

  • Jul. 19th, 2008 at 6:54 PM

 Here i am bored and hungry as hell.Cant go out of the studio cos of the back to back jammers and i've been munching on only Mamee since morning.My head is aching from noise from these jammers.Where are those uncles who play soft oldies when you need 'em.Putri isnt online so that makes my 4 remaining hours here even more boring.

I didnt have a good start to the day.I woke up from my 1 hr slp and found out that my brother borrowed my bag with the studio's key inside.Now which idiot would borrow a bag without emptying the owner's stuff inside 1st.I had to fucking go the school he's teaching at,go to the office,and to the classroom just to take the key back so i can open the shop.Motherfucker asked me to wait another 30mins when i reached.I was late for work.My 1st time being late to work EVER.Standing ovation to that asshole.

I leave u with a quote from Albert Einstein.Peace!

"If i were not a physicist,I would probably be a musician.I often think in music.I live my day dreams in music.I see my life in  terms of music.I do know that i get most joy in life out of my violin"
                                              
  • Mood: bored

Grand Conjuration

  • Jul. 19th, 2008 at 12:37 AM

BE day have just passed and I am definately happy with our performance.We played 3 songs.I wil survive,She will be loved & Hit me Baby one more time and it went well other than the microphone being too soft and i can hear only a faint whisper when drumming.And i felt like i could have showed more actually.Wasnt much opportunity to actually showcase what i had inside my sick brain filled with off beats and crazy mixtures but as a band,im happy with the whole thing.The crowd was great and shouting and whistling all the time and i couldnt have asked for more.Its been a very tiring week and i've finally told putri about the little crush i have on her.Too bad she's having her eye on another guy but yea,nothing much other than that.

  • Mood: bouncy

Young child's subverted mind

  • Jul. 16th, 2008 at 3:05 AM

this is my 1st ever blog post.I've never done this before mainly due to the lack of time,lack of "happening" activities in my life and the lack of reasons to do so.So why start now?.Though the amount of "happening" activities in my life hasn't seen an increase and i havent met the reasons to start a blog,why shouldnt i start a blog.I live my life experimenting with unknown so i can pass down stories for generations and carve my name in history even if its only my family's history.

Let me start with a lil introduction though i myself dont have a god picture of who i am.who does?.Im 20,a freak for beats,and anything that grooves and chills the insanely beautiful human body.I've always been the family "rebel" due to the past which i dont wish to show-off but nonetheless,if im proud of who i am now,i shld be proud of my past.Living life with no regrets.

I beleive the world and beliefs now are blinded by hypocrisy,blinded from the truth and blinded to feed man's ego,to feed man's ever-increasing demand of power,influence and assets.The truth isnt hard and difficult.The fragile mind should expand,looking at facts instead of listening to egoistic lectures of pleasure and power especially in this world where trust is misused,misinterpreted.Homosapiens only believe what they want to believe.Ignorance is a better choice for most.

I like to believe im opinionated yet flexible.I try my best to support my opinions with facts but to err is human.Thats all i have to say about myself.To conclude our little trip thru the deep realms of my mind,i would just like to say that im feeling nervous because i'll be performing in 15 hours infront of a crowd of maybe 200.

To everyone reading,thank you for taking 10 minutes of ur precious time and straining ur eyes to read this gibberish.
  • Mood: thirsty